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Morning mr superhiro =) got e job.trs start smlm..prefer envrmt kt permata..warm people,nice place,got superhiro.hehe..


di ulangi: GOT SUPERHIRO! wohoo...baru kaO nak perasankan aku ye..ngeh3 (sambil kedengaran bunyik "hnsss" dr serombong idong tanda bangga..)


hurm, didn't get e expected answer tho...but still i'm happy for her..lucky her, juz finished her study n immediately being hired - as a trainer lak tu! e job dat I was longing for! guess she didn't need much help from me..days before dat tried to gv some interview tips dat i picked up from Graduan, tot she's gonna borrow it to make a revision or s'thg, but afer got back from asar prayer, she just left the book on e desk..


~hati ini mulai berbunga mengenangkan kemungkinan yg bakal terjadi~


bean: dats not so bad for a start..hurm, next step..wat to say?wat to do?wattt?
me : nahhhh...just be ursef bean..iAllah it'll be fine.. but getting dat sort of reply, don't u think u'v to evaluate e situation again bean? pls don't put too much hope di time oret bean?u don't want ursef to be ponkius again rite? remember macik?
bean: well, guess ur rite...plus wif dat Jepp Carsast boy at her frensster...hv 2b prepared for e worst la ..


after gv some think-thank, started out the 'ketet-ketet' activity wif her...as usual, did most of e talkin. but e hope is there rite? tho i'm quite disturbed of her not revealing her status whther she hv sthg wif dat Jepp Carsast or not..tend to ignore it for a while..well at least for dis moment i'd like to layan dis jiwang of mine...


p/s: lady-D...satisfied ur kay-pow-chi-ness? ;p

n e v.much awaitd msg read...

=) tq v.much! brave 1 ha u. truly a superhiro...

huh..dats all that i got for being cuak bagai nak mampOsss..the 2-days of jiwa kachau, and at 1.14 am before i went to sleep i finally get a grip on mysef and ter-sengaja opening the msg. wat a dissapointment i'd say... :(

today is the last day of the orientation program. just as i was about to lose my hope, just as i was figuring out wat to reply, or shud i even reply...suddenly got another sms, IT'S HER! and this time cuak no more. post it later ..

can't stand staring at the monitor the whole day aa..easily get tired. after 5pm surely my eyes will trigger the auto-shutdown mode, and my colleagues are all aware of that habit.

6.18pm - it's raining some more. niat nak gi shopping samtin red 4 tonite..we'll see la. signing out..ilalliqa' ;)

melanTiT daaa

kuang2..baru aku terperasan the actual word..slamat pagi senin to you bean! da baca sms tu lom?

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hemphh...xkeruan aku wat keje arini. y is dat i felt like making a mistake of sending dat card out? siot gilerr..xsangka aku jadi pengecut cenggini. if u can't understand urseff, how can u understand others..and even how can u expect others 2 understand u?? haiyooo...felt like story-ing to some aa. luahkan segala pankreas mu, segala oksigen mu itu bean...mak-abah?huhu..x kot, boley ceghita sama depa...tp selalunya xdpt hasil yg aku harapkan. member2...dolu kt sotai..pas dia kawen aku maleh nak kaco dia. my ro-wau-met..ingat nk crita sama dia smlm, tp tgk dia tgh hepi pasal berjya melepasi sesi-interrogation, xmo rosakkan mood dia la :) k.eda kalu, huhu..maybe she's the only person rite now that understand me - we share the same b'ground. tp nak call ni aku liat sket..kredit pon tinggal ciput je. adehhhh...takut siottt, muahahaha. bape kali dah aku baca bismillah>menu>message>inbox, tp bila nampak nama dia terus kecut perOt. cetttttt..xtau pesepa. xkan nk kena soh org lain yg bukak? waduh-waduhhhh


ro-wau-met aku & langsatz had been asking bout this particular blog. kind of segan aa nak bagitau...coz felt like not up to the standard of the lantit 's blog. no shoutbox, no link, no pics, no nothing...too much down to earth ke eh? under-estimating ursef izit bean? hurmm..i know this is a place of freedom-expression..u can do, say, post, create, decorate anything, anyhow dat u like. tp bila kita tau somebody else would view it, read it, then perhaps evaluate it...there's a certain uninvited pressure. for sure u want to look good in front others rite? huhu..for me, for the time being biar je la camni je rOpanya...perhaps after i've run out of this 'bodo-sombong' to ask for help. till then...sukati hg la bean oii.

sun-day ..but looks more like a rain-day

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her 11.32am sms woke me up this morning. pastu faiz mai tanya aku wats e plan 4 today..aku kata xdak. nak sambung balit tdoq, tp hati ni da jadi xtentu arah. arghhhh...apsai la aku x brani nak baca sms yg dia antaq.mcm2 yg aku pikiaq.wat-if itu, wat-if ini. even up to this moment pon aku biaq saja ikon sms bekelip2 kt henpon aku tu. aihhh...bean, bean...hg saja make simple things complicated la. tp xsangka ek, aku ingatkan lepas kes macik tu hati aku ni lambat laie la nk 'diketuk' kembali. cuma this time ghaplah tu x sehebat penangan dulu la, perhaps sebab dia ni cam juai mahai sgt, so xdak la rentetan peristiwa2 yg menterkesimakan jiwa. baguih la jugak camtu, aku pon xsure samada sanggup mengharungi laie sekali zaman2 ponkius. la ni pon dok ada saki-baki laie...gila..gila


ro-wau-met aku, arini p 'meet the parent'. good for him. senang jadi org decisive cam dia. aku tumpang gembira aku bila dia finally jumpak soul-mate dia (after the long-awaited person x jadik ngan dia). aku tgk depa dua mmg sepadan, secocok, bak kata org kg aku: seshueiiii la...dan aku?


plan nk p umah pesot pon xjadik laie. da barapa lama dah...lama aku x jenguk depa, my dearest roomate tu. lately after equinocs dia mai ujan pulak dah - rahmat Allah yg manusia selalu lari dpdnya. aku nk kena p jugak, sistem yg aku kena wat tu dah stuck...tak kemana. k.lena asik dok ngomel soh aku siapkan. adeiiii...bukan aku xtau kepentingan dia, tp aku buntu la. tu yg kena p jumpak sot ni. lepas dia kawen cam renggang sket dah kami, aku maleh la nk kaco dia. dah x sama dah zmn bujang ngan lps kawen...plus letey la naik keta-taya-dua aku ni nk p sana (huhu, hujan lebat lam kepala otak ek)

posto..posto...

rangka karangan yg di rangka-rangka..adehhhh (basically the one written in that card kind of like this la...)

2.24 am

A’kum cik. How ur doing? I believe that it must be a relief for u to finally put a full stop on ur day as practical-trainee… in PERMATA. Though I’m not as observant as u are, I still notice that ur not that happy being posted here…so far it wasn’t that bad rite…? :)

Uh-oh.. supehiro kim salam. Ada pesanan sket. Dia kata dia sori sebab slalu nyakat, berguro senda ngan cik…he said can’t help it since cik is so cute & sweet. Can’t help also to be little bit jealous every time he’s disguising as a posto-cabuk..and little bit some more when cik is on the line wif someone..aiyoo, now he can’t help to feel kind of sad. I think he likes u la cik. Just that he’s not too sure wat to do with it & if it’s OK with u. Why not tell him ur status, in relationship ke apa ke, so that there won’t be unnecessary feeling, which would lead to unnecessary expectation, which would lead to unnecessary disappointment. Bukan apa, he’s now trying to find himself again, to recover up and I don’t think he’s ready yet for another UNNECESSARY thing. Nama je supehiro tapi hampeh gak…Anyway, he’d like to say thanks 2u- BIG thanks.

By the way, there’s something that i’d like to share with cik…the book; part of my obligation as Muslim, and the ladybird; just like u cik, cute & sweet. May Allah will always place His Redha upon u, in whatever path lies in front of u after this. Insya-Allah I’ll keep praying for ur safety, health everything. 1 thing 4sure la, I’ll miss ur smile+laugh :)

Sehingga di lain hari, di lain rezeki. Ws...

Yours truly (on behalf of Supehiro),




(Tengku Khalid b Tengku Zainol Abidin)

melantik/melentikk..??pakejadah nihhhh!!!

last nite followed my ro-wau-met to this so-called majlis perasmian penutup(?) silat - (yes, i know i didn't get the name rite), held at Dewan Badminton Cheras. 1st time tho went there, 1st time prayed at that masjid - apa nama...masjid othman ke eh? n 1st time being involved in such melentik/melantik session. kuang2..never been too worry about such details..ejaan silap pon silap la..as long as the message is there


went to pick up lady-d + her 3 hosmates at masjid-UPM..left their car at tasek. kind of hv a weird feeling tho, dunno y. perhaps that's the 1st time i felt like being match-making..by whom? my ro-wau-met of koss..yo-yo je nak kenalkan aku ngan bloggers yg still single..ahahah. nway appreciate his effort..at 1st felt kinda desprado+pathetic..but then being me who prefer to look on the bright side..i said y not? perhaps i'd met someone that'll make my heart goes 'dag-dig-dug'


after maghrib prayer, proceed to langsat's (?) house..salina was there as well.


argghhhhh..felt really guilty of blogging where/when i'm supposed to focus on my system tho..but my mind is stuck..xdak idea la..dah aa this whole morning windows aku corrupt..had to reinstall the window again, then formatted it after i failed to copy some of the very important files into cluster-o (map drive). that took up till 1 pm..siann kt Mazli.


huhu, well..5.15pm..da abis waktu keje. can continue with less guiltiness ;p where was i huh? o-yeah..wait a little while outside e house while the gurlsss mekaping (kot?)..and inside the kembara i was chitt-chattying wif my ro-wau-mate. still felt akward of the idea of match-matching..of him trying to be mr. hitch..ye aa, sebab x besa la..lady-d is slangorian, while the other 2 is ganu-ian. after much awaited moment, we finally made our way to the crime-scene..huhu, ramei gak..siap ngan bas atm (atm-begerak ke?) laie ..took some time to feel
comfortable, to be myself again. so far i do enjoy the show, tho Penang lost to the cute-kl boy eh guy eh ape2la. rasa smgt balik nak bersilat kembali..at least it'd keep me occupied + not wasting time doin nothing then pitying mysef...ahahha.


finished around 11.30pm (ke eh?)..damn hungry..like mat busu said in PMPMTT (p mai p mai tang tu), don't make me hungry, when i'm hungry i'll be angry..warghhhhhh...makan budokkk! stop by at medan selera velodrom..ordered nasi-goreng-USA..paling mahai tuuu..with hope the ROI is very much worth it. alas, hampehnyeee...sedeynyierrrrr...dah aa dresing hancussss..nasik sket, pastu letak laie SOSEJ! erkk...x sensitip tui aa demo nih. tho they tried to make it nicely-mcm bunga yg baru berkembang mekar di taman pelangi..hatiku tertutup terus utkmu sosesss!bila makanan dah tersedia n i feel myself again..xperlu nak meng-kaver..then everything seems to make sense. alhamdulillah they could accept my lawokss..okeh la tu, kepala semua sempoi2 je. n i can't help myself to feel sorry for Sajen, 1st time jumpak terus kena ngan
aku..don't mean to do that ekceli, just did. unintentionally. series! like my colleague would say: janji! ahaha..aku pon xtau pabenda yg dia asik dok janji tu ;p


dunno wat time we left dat place..xdakla kenyang sgt, tp boleyla..xdela kebulor like before. xsempat nk melambai2 kt salina+langsat. before the end of journey, lady-D came out wif a question-killing one according to my ro-wau-met. "wat wud u do if ur gfen is cheating on u, playing 2-sticks behind u and soon u found out..but then ur sooo much in love with her. wat u do huh?" hurmm..dunno where it came from but i confidently answer it..plus sharing an arabian-proverb:

selangkah yg kau ambil ke arah wanita
bermakna tiga langkah engkau ke arah kebodohan


and alhamdulillah, that proverb is enuff to lady-D's question of "mana korang punya ego?"..till next melentik/melantik (argghh..wateverlah..) iAllahh...


TQ fellow bloggers...really enjoy meeting u guys


=punched my card out..(leh claim OT la camni..kuhehss)=

r-u-o-k

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Hw 2 mk u blif in urslf again..find out wat is it dat mk u lose it..tackle it frm there. are u ok?

bean..r u ok?