ALHAMDULILLAHHH..FINALLY!!! HOHOHO...
99% cute, 98% sweet, 95% loving, 90% talented, & 100% down to earth
haiyoo..what else would u expect kan?
mm, perhaps some % of truthfulness, % of honesty & % of explanation?
ke u'd prefer me loosing u?
Those percentage I've given to you was intentionally to cheer you up, not to bring confusion nor doubts. I expect myself to have less than that, what more could I say?
Truthfulness? I was being truthfull...
Honesty? I was honest with you, with all my heart no doubt. Only I wasn't being transparent enough...
Explanation? As far as know, I have not been able to explain everything to you personally, not hand-written nor through emails. I'd prefer to meet you personally when I explain what my heart say...
Then let me give you the percentage: 100% of truthfulness, 100% of honesty and 0% of explanation.
waktu sy dah makin singkat
sy dah makin letih asyik tertanya2
dah makin letih asyik terkenang
dan semakin letih pabila rasa dipermainkan
:(
You had once said [may I quote] "If I didn't get a reply from u or if there are some questions that u tend to ignore it. It's ok; I'm not in place to force u. I just have to assume that ur answer is NO...and ur not meant for me..and I need to move on." So I thought you would stick to your assumption...
As I thought [pardon me for that again], that you had move on. I have no intention whatsoever to make you more confused. I have no intention to fool you. I have no intention to put you full in doubts. I have no intention at all for that reasons...
With all do respect, I have my reasons, explanations and answers to your previous email that you had sent me on October 21, 2004. You may have all the time in your life to have it but my request is only if we meet up personally for that.
Please, do not despair your time for me; wondering and feeling tired. I'm not worth it. I'm sure you have someone you could love with all your heart, and I'm happy for you. I apologise for all my wrong-doings, but saying this doesn't mean I'm ignoring or running away from your questions. If you feel that you could not bare talking or chatting with me at the mean time, then I shall respect your decision.
Only if...
Wassalam
kalau hang jawab awal2 cenggini kan senang..haishhh
99% cute, 98% sweet, 95% loving, 90% talented, & 100% down to earth
haiyoo..what else would u expect kan?
mm, perhaps some % of truthfulness, % of honesty & % of explanation?
ke u'd prefer me loosing u?
Those percentage I've given to you was intentionally to cheer you up, not to bring confusion nor doubts. I expect myself to have less than that, what more could I say?
Truthfulness? I was being truthfull...
Honesty? I was honest with you, with all my heart no doubt. Only I wasn't being transparent enough...
Explanation? As far as know, I have not been able to explain everything to you personally, not hand-written nor through emails. I'd prefer to meet you personally when I explain what my heart say...
Then let me give you the percentage: 100% of truthfulness, 100% of honesty and 0% of explanation.
waktu sy dah makin singkat
sy dah makin letih asyik tertanya2
dah makin letih asyik terkenang
dan semakin letih pabila rasa dipermainkan
:(
You had once said [may I quote] "If I didn't get a reply from u or if there are some questions that u tend to ignore it. It's ok; I'm not in place to force u. I just have to assume that ur answer is NO...and ur not meant for me..and I need to move on." So I thought you would stick to your assumption...
As I thought [pardon me for that again], that you had move on. I have no intention whatsoever to make you more confused. I have no intention to fool you. I have no intention to put you full in doubts. I have no intention at all for that reasons...
With all do respect, I have my reasons, explanations and answers to your previous email that you had sent me on October 21, 2004. You may have all the time in your life to have it but my request is only if we meet up personally for that.
Please, do not despair your time for me; wondering and feeling tired. I'm not worth it. I'm sure you have someone you could love with all your heart, and I'm happy for you. I apologise for all my wrong-doings, but saying this doesn't mean I'm ignoring or running away from your questions. If you feel that you could not bare talking or chatting with me at the mean time, then I shall respect your decision.
Only if...
Wassalam
kalau hang jawab awal2 cenggini kan senang..haishhh
posted by bean_beh @ 3:35 AM
8 Comments:
At 3:51 AM,
Anonymous said…
alhamdulillah, thank u Allah..'breaking the silence' from u finally :p
why, why does it take this long for u to response something on that email?
it took all my guts, putting down all the egos, rasa malu & segan etc just to click on the send
button, only to have taken me back to the ponkiusan island again:
"sampai ke tak email tu? dia baca ke tak? kalau baca xkan la dia sampai ati xnak reply even a single word kot.."
yes, u quoted it rite there..and i thought without any answer from u i could move on, just like what i
wrote in there...but guess it is not that simple, it never has..
awak tatau hampir mereng sy jadiknya..
i got mysef bz with anything just so that i'd be too tired to 'live in the past'
but whenever i'm about to let u go, dgn izin Allah, u'd show up again!
and it hurt much when ur acting as if there's nothing ever happen b4, as if u don't even receive that email, wa munya sms pon di buat dekk aje :/
isk, xkan la awak xleh perasan samada sy dah leh move on ke tak
and if i could recall, there are several times that i'v invited u out, hoping for us to meet personally where u hv the opportunity to explain what ur heart say (and i don't have to keep wondering)
but again awak mcm nk melarikan diri..leaving me with no absolute answer to my invitation
even to just a simple question like "skang keje mana?" pon xdak jawapang gak..
selepas tu awak akan menyepi...dan tinggallah saya terkontang-kanting trying not 'to live in the past'
again
the same scenario keep repeating ..and it is draining me out, adding the pain
yep, u may have no intention to confuse me, fooling me or putting me in doubts..but when u choose to be silence and act as if ur running away, u have done so to me..
like i said before, even with everything that has happened, i can't possibly hate u, i'm incapable in fact.
until Allah has given us the opportunity for u to be transparent and explanable then, pls help me.
pls reply to this email but no more forwarded sms or forwarded email to me. that include ym as well - pls ignore my id. it wud only make things hard for me later. and pls not to stay in silence anymore wud u?
thank u :)
At 3:52 PM,
pjot said…
pokcik bing... mung guano lo ni? huhu... hope ur ok there... u go bing!!!
At 5:32 PM,
coklat~vanilla said…
hati dah tenang blom?
At 12:06 AM,
Anonymous said…
No, I should thank you. You never know how much I cherish and appreciate all the moments, because everytime I think of you, my heart smiles...
Perhaps I am afraid of losing someone whom I could never have......
alahaiiii...psepa hang akhiri ayat hg camni..adehhh :/
At 2:47 PM,
nesloice said…
aduhai bro...
kenapa la ko jadi anonymous plak dlm blog sendiri, pening aku nak memaham, ish ish ish...
dr pandangan mata aku yg jauh kat kl ni, korang dua2 belum dpt (dan mungkin takkan dpt) closure sampai bila2 pun kalau inilah gayanya... sama-sama scare of possibilities, payah.
aku yg membaca, terhidu bibit2 sayang, tp nampak gayanya selagi takde satu pihak pun yang berani ngambil risiko, buat keja gila memaksa pertemuan 6 mata utk berbincang hati ke hati, begini laa korang. terpisah dgn banjaran gunung dan laut cina selatan, tp minda tetap teringat, hati tetap terikat...
bro, kalau ko perlu org tengah utk jd iniator, i am only a phone call away ;)
At 3:20 AM,
Anonymous said…
eheh..saja ja bro. aku maleh nk login :p
nway tq bebeh. doakan aku x mereng laie ;)
At 12:26 PM,
Anonymous said…
abang,saye tak paham
At 9:21 AM,
adibah abdullah said…
salam,
sangat sukar untuk melepaskan, dan mungkin 'menanti sebuah jawapan' itu hanyalah alasan untuk melambat-lambatkan penerimaan terhadap kenyataan.
mungkin kita sebenarnya sudah 'tahu' apakah 'jawapan' itu sebenarnya, tetapi berpura-pura tidak tahu, kerana harapan adalah sesuatu yang terlalu indah untuk dibiarkan terbang pergi.
dan apabila 'jawapan' sudah diperoleh pun, harapan masih digenggam.. dan masa depan masih bertindih dengan kenangan serta impian~
meow
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