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yesterday nite (yup, as today is already sunday), kind of jiwa kachau..for some reason kept having this idea of accompanying her to watch Royal. been quite busy lately, just couldn't find the rite to to. but dat nite after e farewell party (by HR), e idea kept bugging me. isk..camne eh? nk ajak ke x? ajak ke nak x?x nak ke ajak?nak ke x ajak?nak x ajak ke? mm, show tu koi bape ek? huh, by 7pm can't focus anymore at my job. packd up and once got home, searched 4 e phamplet..lorr, 8pm ropanya..mana sempat beb! layan ADAM jap. after maghrib prayer again mat noor calld. cam beria2 je aku ajak minum..ni msti ada aa2 ni. okla2, NZ besaq 10pm. took a short nap, woke up, isya' prayer, dressed in my nite attire, startd my PEM..off we go..

hurm, he's still hasn't arrive yet..nevamind, order 1st. damn hungry. later on he showed up. gv him a bit cold shoulder at e 1st place. huhu, sori matnor..buruk sangka kt hg (which i'm usually not). he's just too damn bored..sian. faham how he felt. later i started to open up my story as well, not dat into detail la..just like a summary. hurm, dats a bit ease of 4me. finished chit-chatting 12am sometin, apart off. arrived home, layan kingdom of heaven wif bertiques and soul wif ro-wau-met. 3.30am then called e nite off.

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woke up 7.12am, uhhh..hate it, miss again! sambung tido ah! 8.45am..aiyak, en. ayob ask me to be there to greet TFC..hurm, sori la en.ayob..too tired. plus think it's not dat important. close ur eyes bean...1.30pm abruptly waken up by a call drom him.

ayark..i'm at home. everything's ok en.ayob, TA ptg
ni xsure la pulak. ur coming? okess..ws

enjoyed my bath. luch wif ro-wau-met, proceed to PERMATA...hvn't did mch work, as usual lost focus. 8.30pm went to WARTA wif e guys..it's bowling time, yeay!!! booked almost all e lanes..eheh. me wif siti, merlinne & sha. 1st frame trok gak aku. preassure woo..siti & sha kept hvg their strikes & spares..aiyoo..tercabar kelakian aku nih..eheh. luckily, alhmdlh..managed to get over 100. 2nd frame did improve lil bit, but overall our performance a bit low..perhaps siti hv lost her touch/lucky. sha's a superb! dunno overall score, balik awal coz yam's parent already waiting at PERMATA. tx to hafiz, pjah, yam & farah for e ride. i know i'm a lil bit quiet.
sket ke? okla..most of e time being quiet. just laughing at their jokes..hoho, beanseng giler! there r 2 things dat occupies my mind now. benda yg aku dok pikiaq as i put it up there.


1st i've decided not to pursue her anymore. judging from dat i gt so far since e card-day..

suddenly got 1 msg..hoh? sapo nk antaq koi 4.20am camni? hurm, ira dr abas ropanya. I was kind of hoping it is cik resakse..wanted to know about e decision dat i'v made. hohoho..in ur dream braderrr...

oret, where was i just now? o-yeah..it's obvious dat only me intrestd to now her more..while she's just playing dun care. adela samtime tu she'd reply..in a bit cold way la..kurang kemesraannya. all this time terasa aku je yg mcm terhegeh2..idung dahla x mancung, pipi pulak yg disorongkan. but still can't understand it, for wat reason does she hv to keep her status as secret? uv been trained as a counsellor, n i believe u shud know better dat action wud just gv a
hope 4me. false hope i wud say..kan senang if u wud just reply my cadr by saying 'sorry, i'm taken. but i appreciate ur attention & interest towards me. perhaps we can remain as a fren..?' i'm so ready for dat answer...yet u choose to give me none, which i'm totally unprepared dat kind of answer! perhaps it's my luck to keep falling for girls dat full of mystery..eheh. i'v sms gaban about my decision - while i'm trying my luck out for a strike or at least a spare. wohoho..abis baling sambung ketet2. damn! i hate blamming other people! mmg aku yakin ada hikmah.
(wat do u expect, i'm a positive thinker watt..). so dats it..dats e end of 'The chase of Supehiro on Resakse'. n i guess dats e end of my dream to bring her to see Royal..wohohohho..



uh-oh (credit 2 resakse for dis uh-oh), 2nd thing rite? - yg aku dok pikiaq, is when pjah said dat
'hafiz ni dh jadi pengganti bean. bean dulu mcm dia la..suka wat lawak. skg ni nk wat lawak ngan bean pon takut sket. bean dh jadi sirius..'. eheh..yepp, tepat pjah..aku bukan laie aku yg dulu. bean dat u knew last time is bean who's trying to run away from his problem. dat bean is trying to cover up the wounded he carried, by being cheerful and witty. but the present bean couldn't hide dat wound any longer..semakin besar lukanya hingga x mampu di tutup laie. but dun wori pjah, i can still make jokes once in a time..still can be ur listener whenever u need one. i was hoping dat she cud bring e joyful back.. guess i was wrong pjah.

to those whu know me, so sorry for this glomy face of mine..which cud ruin ur day by it. iAllah i'll try to draw a smile on it.


4.57 am..damn tired..

p/s: soli aa wa apdet pasai jiwa kachau wa dulu..pasai itu saja yg memotibetkan wa utk apdet.
lain2 akan menyusuli olett... ;)